i thought of something, and i'm sharing...
i was talking to my boss the other day, talking about life, about gay people, about things that are beyond our control.. it was pretty much all about business sense but somehow it could relate to life.. like, whatever you apply to business, you could apply it to your everyday life.. if you have a business, you want to make the best out of it.. same applies to your life, you want to live the best that life has to offer..
i was walking my usual route home when sudden questions came to my mind..
i was having some trouble in my life.. *this is just something within me*
"who am i?" "what am i?" "why am i behaving this way?"
i gave it a long thought and i could only come up with a couple of conclusions..
setbacks are just setbacks, i don't need them to run my life down.. but these setbacks are affecting my life pretty bad.. i need to make this change, i have to..
if whatever happens means nothing, i wouldn't be in this condition.. if it really means something, then i would.. people change when they get older, they tend to be wiser.. but this change i'm having is not about me getting older or wiser, it's just about me letting my life being pulled down and not doing anything about it.. i've had enough of those and i'm fighting it..
i'm getting good, i got this through.. my life was high, then it went down, and now it's high all over again.. i'm not getting older or wiser, i'm already old enough and wise enough to know what's best for me.. sometimes, you let the moment of heat run wild.. you let things take control of you before you take control of them.. this is something i always foresee.. i'm still working on this stage in my life, i'm still reading and thinking to make myself better..
i have my instincts to guide me along, and i'm thankful that a couple of my friends are actually capable of really reliable opinions.. through and done, i'm not looking back.. i am best at where i'm standing right now, been there and done that.. there's no regret in my dictionary, cause everything just makes me whole..
but i'm careful of decisions now, and i'm thinking before i do anything.. so fret not, i don't hold grudges and bygones will be bygones..
i'm coming back, as a whole and better individual.. i've changed, and i need you to see that...
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