*i'm listening to mad by neyo while typing this out. try hearing it while reading this out.
i've got close to someone, close as in i've regard her a part of my life.
i havent had someone like that for almost a year already, and i know it is gg to be tough.
i chose this decision cause i believe this is what that's been keeping me all these while.
i'm ready thus the decision to let someone in my life.
the day it happened, she was everything to me.
she was my love, my soul mate, my best friend, my sweetheart.
and the feelings i had for her was the purest.
nothing comes close to that, not even something wonderful.
look, something wonderful is something i've known before her.
SW and I are close, someone very dear to be exact.
there was a time where if there's her, there's me.
there's no me, there's no her.
but we drew a line after time, but we're still close.
line as in she and i will just be friends, nothing more comes to that.
maybe sweetheart just wasn't willing to accept the fact that we're close.
she was just too engrossed about being jealous.
i could call SW dear, baby, princess and all cause we're really that close.
but that's just how i address someone close, i dont feel for her that way.
love probably thinks i'm treating her the same as SW, and she's furious about it.
not exactly, SW will always be SW and you're definitely better than that.
soul mate and i are gg through some things at the moment, that will either make or break us.
as much as how i want to keep it, there's only much i can do.
you can never know anything, if you never let them out.
and whatever i do, is just to get back at you.
best friend, i have feelings. i'm human, just like you.
the way how i vent my frustrations, is to get it back to you.
i know this is wrong, but that's all i could do at the moment.
i feel the whole world is shutting down, the light at the end of the tunnel is fading.
i'm not ready for any relationship either, but i'm trying on this one.
because you're something worth sharing my life with that's why.
i'm going to be gone away for awhile, i dont see the need to be around people.
miss my presence when i'm gone and if you're reading this, i love you sweetheart.
if you think you're mad at me for 1001 reasons, that's just how mad i am at you.
but my love is so pure, your presence is enough to make the mad go away,
i'm gg to sleep tonight, wondering why this is happening.
i'm gg to sleep tonight, with stupid thoughts running through my mind.
i'm gg to sleep tonight, with tears in my eyes.
i'm gg to sleep tonight, with you in mind.
one more thing, mistakes make us better.
dont run away, instead learn and be better from it.
