First and foremost, sorry Syilaa.
I know it came a little late, but yea i was busy.
It's 2am and I'm blogging. Planned to meet up the bunch but was tired so called it off.
Thought I could have an early night but lappy's stopping me. I just feel like writing.
Sitting along the corridor with a smoke at the corner of my lip, here I go
Humans,
they are all very different. Some think they own the world, some think they live just for the sake of living in this world. Idk why this got stuck in my head, wait, maybe prolly I've been talking to too many different people lately.
Own the world,
achieving all aspects in life. Be successful, be respected, be looked up upon. everyone wants that, who doesnt? But each and everyone has the mindset of, "hey, think i could skip this tday then prolly just do it tml". Which of course will never come. Then brings in live for the sake of just living in the world. I believe you got to be realistic.
How you bring yourself up, how you pull yourself down. You choose your own path in life. Different people are brought up in different culture thus affecting the way how they think.
For eg, you were born with people with tattoos surrounding you. You think tattoo is nothing and normal. If you were brought up with everyone around you talking about religion and never miss their prayers, you wouldn't even know what's a tattoo.
My point is, each and everyone of us are brought up in a different culture. And as time lingers pass, you learn the ropes of life and experiences that is either gg to make or break you.
You get to learn what's right and what's wrong. Too much curiousity will lead you bad and a little bit of each, will eventually do you good. And the way you're brought up, plays a part too.
A friend confided in me. Telling me what's been going on with him and stuff. After what I heard, I see myself as how I used to be before my last relationship. Then I snapped, damnnn i've changed. Changed for the good. And life's been pretty sucky since I changed for the good. Haven't had any french, haven't had any smooches, haven't had any anyone to share my life with, and on top af all, haven't had any sex! But I take things as it comes. It's a good thing tho, I'm not willing to go on another relationship knowing I'd break someone else's heart terribly. Maybe after lyana I've learnt my lesson. Wait, maybe after hanah I've changed. Fuck it, idc. But I'm proud that for once, I finally have discovered another part of me that I actually felt good about.
I'm sorry to all the broken hearts I've done wrong, for the boy you once knew has grown up.
i'm willing to push my egos aside, i just want to let you know i still miss you. Miss you as my friend. You were a great friend, relationship is just not the key to make us closer, friendship is.
it's been awhile, i just hope you get my point. i know you're reading this.
Pretty random for me to write about all these, I just wanted to say what's that's been pondering in my mind for quite awhile.
Damnnn! Now i miss alot of people. But then again, life has to roll baby. I'm getting numb to this entire feeling I'm having. I have better things to do. Til then, chaooo senoritas.
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