I don't understand, I really don't. So screwed up that I don't feel like I'm being me. Right now, my mind's blank. Tossed and turned and till now, I still can't sleep. Is it work? No can't be. Is it school? Maybe. Or is it love? More likely. It's been quite awhile since I last fell for someone. And to what's hapeening now, I can only gaze at the sky blaming that night. That night of just having fun and no intention of anything else.
Anyways, my birthday was a blast. Clock was 1220am and I was at cine waiting for my good friends. Shidah bought me a cake which was suuper sweet, Raudhah and Alep was there too to share the joy :) watched tropical thunder and headed home soon after that. Thanks for that 1st celebration!! bombarded with msges and calls the next day i woke up, damn it was nice :) at least people remembered, unlike last year where it was just like a normal day except for some wishes. cleaned the bed and went out to meet g. mum was making noise la cause people were all coming to celebrate and i'm not there but it's okay, i prefer the halloween night safari with g better :) had sakae before that and tasted some really nice food, all thanks to g :) the HNS was fun uh. suuuper fun. got ah pui dressed up like some retard butcher and also sadako was there. but the thing that made it sooo memorable was the smell of the hair, the head on the shoulder and of course, the prettyface :) she made it all look good. took a bus to lot1 and g took a cab home from there. had muffins g made once i'm home. it was suuuper nice i tell you, and the sweetness of the muffin lasted in my mouth for three days cause ppl said i sweet talk too much after that for three consecutive days. haha!! received a few more belated bday wishes the next day and yea, I wished everyday was my birthday. haha!!
she made us drinks, to drink. we drunk'em got drunken and i think she thinks i'm cooooool. she gave me a wink, i winked back. it's time for us to get flyyy tonight!! haha crazy!!
1st November, Cassandra's birthday. Came late, say 0110hours? got a jug of bourbon coke and then some stupid shit. don't wana talk about it. one of the reasons i came down was to see you but it all ended up in some stupid misund, uh again I'll say it, stupid shit. everything's different now to where it all first started. i can feel the change baby, can you? maybe you don't realise it cause it's you the one making the change. whatever it is, fuck it. some stupid shit..... i'll end this stupid blog and go do what i was doing again repeating the same steps all over again beginning with paragraph one.
